Lately I haven’t felt much like writing, I suffered a major lost in my family and I have been feeling like it was incredibly hard to breath. I felt like something was miss and my chest felt as though I was having an mild heart attack. The person that I lost was my lifeline, someone whom I’ve always had and no matter what was there for me. Loved me unconditionally and without judgement. Taught me the meaning of strength, faith and trust in God. Everything I know about this wonderful world of sprint I learned from this person. The woman that I am I owe to this person and now she is gone.
I struggled with decision, “do I let her go”, “do I hold on to her?”” Is she ready to go or not?” “Why did I find her like that?” Why, Why, Why? I was really very tormented in my mind.
But then there came a peace, this woman whom I loved so much had lived a long wonderful life, a life of faith and trust that God would move no after what the situation. That if you believed in him he would do the very best for you. She understood God’s will, and that his will is to give us the desires of our hearts or something better. She understood that his will would be done and where we may not understand it when it is happening that if we search for understanding that it would surely come. She understood, today I can say that I understand that God makes not mistakes and that even in the moist of out trials and tribulation he is there guiding us through if we allow him. Today I have the miracle of understanding.